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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 07:00

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

So, i spoilt her more .

Comes on , in middle age.

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My family never makes their pension either.

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His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

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She found it foreign!.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I was 9 years of age.

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Have you ever had a scary dream about a loved one or friend soon after their death?

As i do to all so called friends.?

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Why do people turn a blind eye to bad behaviour if someone is very good looking? Whereas if someone is ugly, they get harshly judged for everything?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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I don,t even have a pension.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Im still living with it.

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He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I never cut or harmed myself..

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

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It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I couldn’t, believe it.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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He resisted the act ,that day.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I was very sick at this time too.

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I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But, we were locked up after school.

When she asked me how she looked .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

All the time i was locked up.

Put me off passion for life!!

I write beautiful poetry .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I will be 64.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I waited trembling.

She married twice! .

He knew the spot.

And i lived it daily.

I was scared of men, in general

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

But ive been too sick for many years..

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I have no regrets .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I could never make a relationship work though!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I think the readers, may guess!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She wouldn,t have been !

Was to survive, this bastard.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

She loved him until the end.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

We were not on the streets..

We all went to grammer schools

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Especially a lifetime of it.

Who then, do I blame.?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

This is soul school!.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

One cannot live in the past .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I said to her

I was seconnd youngest,

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

What did i know ?

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Ive learnt so much.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

So whats the point in blame.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Why did i forgive my father ?

Would this be the day?

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

It was going to be , some day.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

My life is so biszare .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

But it wasn’t much.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

(And it was in our own minds.)

She was in good health!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)